Distressed Soul

Word are muffled and tears are choked,

And a starry silence engulfs,

I try to run and escape en route,

But the more I try, the more lost I become.

Smile is not a facade and pain is not feign,
And my soul languishes in love,
I try to seek solace and calm,
But the more I try, the more ruffled I become.

Water seamlessly pours and brings mirth,
And I'm left in a cloud of steam,
I try to clear the mess and see,
But the more I try, the more shroud I become. 

Days roll by and seasons change,
And I'm left alone to reflect,
I try to cry and break the spell,
But the more I try, the more staunch I become.

-Fatima

IRIDESCENT LIFE

I walk a lonely road,

On a path filled with trudgery,

The cold harsh wind blows,

Leaving me alone in melee.

It's driving me crazy,

And I can't find a way out,

Yet the more I try to elude,

The more I end up being tangled.

In one swift turn life changed,

And happiness replaced sorrow,

Giving birth to a new day,

Yet mysteries shrouded the way.

Time elapsed turning dusk to dawn,

Dissolving melancholy into hope,

Flowers bloomed and birds twittered,

And an invincible summer took over.

Looking back I now realize,

Nothing did really change,

Still days turned into night,

But the frown didn't remain !

-Fatima

A Page from My Diary

Years Passed and yet things remained the same, everything in my surrounding was changing but I was obstinate not on purpose yet I was. But, finally realization dawned on me and I looked beyond the realm of my little world and stepped into the world of superficiality, where emotions were suppressed and silence was harbored. I being a loner most of the time; yes it's true I'm a loner amidst the crowd some realize some don't, I found myself on cross-roads and I fell in love with silence. I realized who I was and why am I like this.

I'm personally not a big fan of silence it still haunts me at times as I feel trapped at times and my words and emotions are choked and they do not find an outlet. But, you know it's silence at times you need to sort out things,to unravel things...to look beyond the surface and explore the intricacy of life and situation. Silence at times speaks volumes and conveys so much so that even words would have not been able  to. Silence too is cathartic and much more effective than letting out in the form of words; as silence commences where speech ends !

And I finally realized it today, silence fills the void that speech can't. You won't believe but there are plenty of things I'm realizing now and it's leaving me wanting for more, to know me more...I feel I've not known myself I've simply been hiding myself from the world...from everyone. Don't know how come this sudden change but I guess it was from the start, I simply didn't allow it to escape and some recent turns in my life have compelled me to acknowledge this and love and appreciate not only silence but so much more.

I always loved silence and solitude as it gave me a sense of tranquility and calm, it's just I've kept it hidden under my talkative self though talking was inborn, spun lies around me...lies which were not meant for others but for my own self, and now I'm just retracing the path, a path that stretches till eternity. And I pen down my thought's only when I'm in peace with myself as they are not mere thoughts and ideas but my heart felt emotions and feelings...the true Me !

REFLECTION

Wondering through the woods, 
Reviving past memories, 
Wishing you were near, 
Escapes a lone tear.

Mistakes were committed, 
Promises were made, 
Time passed by and they too ruptured, 
A lonely trail left behind.

You were raring and ecstatic, 
And I was over the moon, 
Life took a turn and landed you in pain, 
And my heart too flinched with the same.

Time flew by and you moved, 
Leaving me ruffled and wounded, 
Feelings were shrouded, 
And miseries were uncovered.

Today too I walk in the woods, 
Where cacophony has replaced euphony, 
Reminiscing the past memories, 
Silently praying you were near.

-Fatima