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There was nothing striking about him at first glance, he was an ordinary guy of seventeen with nerdy looks and a silent smile. Yet he was someone who enjoyed the soft camaraderie within his circle of friends. Being a rather quiet day with nothing much to do, he immersed himself in the world of John Keats in a world of romanticism and introspection; letting the piled up stress from weeks drain away.</div>
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She was trying to be inconspicuous as she made her way to the small alcove but the slight tapping of her feet on the wooden floor gave her away. No sooner did she invade the serene room a sheepish smile tugged the corner of her lips, having stumbled upon him. Not really embarrassed but surprised to find him there of all places. </div>
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“True, though I guess retrospective would be the more apt word to describe me”, she responded before continuing “I don’t always come here seems like I always have to search for excuses to get away from my gang of girls, fifteen year olds’ can be utterly nosy when they wish to be.”</div>
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They were strangers in a sea of familiar faces, from her age he guessed her to be his junior although he was stunned to know he didn’t know her. Being based outside the outskirts of the city beyond the small town of Shimla, their academy was relatively small where everyone knew everyone making privacy an alien concept. He was suddenly overwhelmed with the need to fill the gaps and converse, to get to know someone from the scratch. He continued,</div>
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“Life is a riot of emotions where I ended up drifting from one shore to another gliding with a gamut of ideas only to realize, life is blue. I love the colour blue; to me it means abundance, loyalty and prosperity. However, I learnt it carries within itself a sense of trust," saying this he paused for a while, not knowing how to put to words his feelings. Feelings that were buried in deep. It was strange that she didn't try to fill the silence with words, but continued to wait. Wait patiently until he began speaking again, " Trust that once gained should not be dwindled but multiplied like prosperity. It is hard for me to open up to people, let alone trust and yet here I am on lazy winter afternoon being open to a stranger.” </div>
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She settled herself in the chair opposite to his and ruminated his words for a long time. Brooding over what he said, trying to organize her incoherent thoughts. Unlike him she was an extrovert or so she thought, until she shifted locations and settled in this tranquil place as opposed to the fast paced city life she was used to. Contrary to him it was appreciation and admiration that she craved.</div>
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“All throughout my life blue was a source of serenity but with the passage of time gloom has started taking its place. People drift away, leaving memories. It's not their fault it's just the way it all works nonetheless certain reliance fades. Trust and trustworthy, do you suppose they are mutually exclusive events despite originating from the same source?”</div>
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“Nostalgia can be a gnawing ache hard to let go”, he returned his gaze to the now dark skies pondering.</div>
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He resumed a few minutes later, “How can one be trustworthy if one doesn’t believe in the concept of trust? Trust is like a secure blanket that surrounds us in a place that we consider our safe haven whereas trustworthy is assuming someone to not break our trust, our cocoon and guiding us.”</div>
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She was feeling stupid as if a layer of her had peeled off with just one random conversation. She stood up abruptly brushing the non-existent lint on her jacket; she spoke in a hopeful yet guarded voice “I’ve always desired a friend with whom I could revel in quiet companionship, until now I didn’t think my wish would be granted. I liked this time we spent together in soft solitude Yasin”, said she his name gleaming from the head boy batch pinned on his chest proudly.</div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-60606194089646585412016-12-02T21:38:00.000+05:302017-04-04T21:39:14.877+05:30Is Honesty Overrated?<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Ever noticed you were all independent and didn't wish to be dependent on others? The reason, you knew some people don't really care or they will leave you all alone when you need them. And then a certain someone comes along and everything in your life rejuvenates. They make you feel loved, cherished and cared for. You start thinking of them as your one true friend and then you realise. It was all just a lie.</div>
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Good morning Toastmaster of the day and fellow seekers. Memories, they are like time machines, taking us to places once known. I have always been an extrovert. Someone who doesn't have trouble striking up a conversation with strangers. I could meet you today smile at you and be myself with no ulterior motive. So let me rewind and take you a few years back in time. I was a good friend..fun to be with, loyal honest and partner in crime. I still am. But I was too innocent and trusting then. </div>
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This is a conversation between Apurva someone who is my best friend from class 6th and me. We are currently in our first year of graduation nearing May.</div>
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Apurva: Excuses! God knows why we were expecting something from you. And hung up the phone. </div>
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The answer came to me. It was the honesty that made me drift away from my friends or maybe as I now look at it, so called friends. It was this blunt nature of mine that actually left me alone and with a void. Too much of mind flipping drama i tell you ! And so I started weaving lies to hide my pain. </div>
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Creating a web of illusory events where I was the reason my friends left me, eventually making a brilliant fiction that could win an Oscar or at least an IIFA Award. And all because I started believing honesty was overrated.</div>
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But deep down I knew relationships cannot survive on lies. That it was time to stop lying to myself that the people I hung out with truly cared. It was time to accept the moment I am honest with them, they walk away. And not because I was honest but because they were never.</div>
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It was almost like I did not have the right to be myself. You know friends there is a saying, </div>
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'There comes a time when you have to stop crossing oceans for people who wouldn't even jump puddles for you.' And the moment I accepted that life gifted me people who are worth it. Who were genuine, who didn't shy away from the truth, both listening and telling.</div>
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People say being too honest can break relationships, but I say it doesn't rather it makes them. It was then I realised honesty is not overrated. What matters is can you handle the truth. So friends what will you do next? The next time you face a situation where you want to be honest but your mind and heart say hey if you be honest here, your friends might not understand and it will backfire. What will you do? </div>
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Many a times you might compromise and not tell the truth. But be true to yourself, don't hesitate please be honest. If you have a true friend, a true lover they will understand and the relation will become strong but not break.</div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-57257143396438175182016-11-09T21:34:00.000+05:302017-04-04T21:36:51.686+05:30The Void Within<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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There was a faint chill in the warm May air and a calm that bought a feeling of change; a change as ancient and intangible as time. </div>
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I was lying on my bed in a pale yellow nightdress staring into the dark space. Million thoughts, one after another kept floating in my mind. Dead silence and a deep settling void were my only companion besides the empty black sky. And all I wanted to do was break free.</div>
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Good morning madame Toastmaster of the day and fellow dreamers. The year was 2010 and I was still an engineer in making. A profession I so hated that I was ready to do anything to escape it. However, there were 3 things I realised then</div>
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And 3. Drinking mountain Dew doesn't really help. And so the struggle continued, internally. Being in a college where everyone was happy to pursue their dream I felt like an outsider. With no one to befriend I started recoiling in my shell. Have you ever felt that? An hankering need to have a companion? A friend with whom you could be yourself, and yet they won't walk away from you. I needed that friend as I was slowly falling in the whirlpool called void. Days turned into months and December arrived, the month when I was supposed to go to my college Industrial Visit up north. I was afraid, how would I enjoy? During my two years of blogging I ended up making a lot friends. It was then for the first time ever that I talked to one on phone. </div>
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Me: Hi mishti Travelling! Out on a trip from college currently in Corbett heading to Nainital. </div>
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And just like the winding roads that connected places, a connection was born.</div>
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She, I felt understood me. Instead of abandoning me, chose to stay. It's not about someone making us happy. Friends it's about who fills the void within, the emptiness that surrounds.</div>
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Times changed, I graduated, did my post graduation yes in engineering. And started working two jobs six days a week to dedicating half the Sunday to Toastmasters yet something was missing.</div>
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In spite of the fact having decided to not follow the rat race and turn into a money making monkey, I turned into one. It felt like a cat and mouse game where I was happy yet not truly content. At that moment when I was again drifting apart Toastmasters came to my rescue in form of Confluence 2016. I realised connections are not always supposed to be the ones that give you a high. Sometimes a connection is that soothing feeling that brings in peace and makes you feel at home. Just like the ocean was breathtakingly beautiful with the wind, stars and moon as its companions.</div>
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I found the connection within myself and in turn with everyone from MTM, I got a chance to connect to the real you Namrata, Pankaj, Prashant, Harsimran, Ravi and others outside MTM. I had gone to Goa to escape but what I found there is something which can't be expressed but only felt.</div>
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Friends remember this, "Life is a series of hits and misses and sometimes there are only dark days at a stretch. Don't lose hope or let the void overpower you, hold on. Just like the sun, that shines after a long dark night!"</div>
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<i><b>P.S: </b>Won Best Speaker Ribbon for this speech.</i></div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-40085291876089463762016-10-11T21:30:00.000+05:302017-04-04T21:32:24.598+05:30Make a Difference<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Local trains are the lifeline of Mumbai, where we come across different types of people. My experience though is confined to the ladies compartment both first and second class. It was during one of my journey's some years ago that I saw a group of ladies forcing a young kid selling notebooks to get off the compartment as it was the first class. It made me question what was the child's fault? why the second hand citizen treatment?</div>
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Has it ever happened to you like it did to me that a particular incident shook you to the core? Blurring the lines between black and white, making you question people. How do they help in the progress of their society? That giving charity to the underprivileged is not the only thing they need, that there is more.</div>
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Let me share with you all a story that is very close to my heart. I graduated in the summer of 2013, though I felt elated and free there was a void in me. A void no matter what I did, didn't disappear. It left me pondering; I had everything for comfort a roof over my head, meals three times a day, education and my family but what about those others who struggled day in and out. I was bursting with energy I wanted to give back to society, to the people who help in making our lives comfortable on the expense of theirs. I had heard donating money is the best help you can give to people.</div>
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I was assigned four 8th std kids and one of the biggest hurdles I had was connecting with those teenage boys. At first it was difficult they were too mischievous and troublesome for my handling especially those initial days when I had no buddy. Half the time it was like police and robbers game where I was the one chasing them to sit in one place and eventually at the end I was the one left tired and they laughing at me. I used to get irked easily those days but later on I realised this was the only time they could laugh and enjoy. With the passing of time we grew closer though not as much as I would have liked as they were with my buddy Omkar. He was the cool teacher and I was the one they turned to when they were down or too energetic.</div>
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There were moments of intense joy and downright sadness with all those emotions that were directly linked to what happened with them over the week. And eventually the year came to end.</div>
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I had gone there to teach to make these kids a part of the global nation but it was I who ended up learning. I taught them English they taught me the language of emotions, of understanding, of true joy, contentment and hope. They do not crave charity a hundred or so odd others give them that, what makes them smile is love, time and effort freely given. In an age where we run behind materialistic things looking far ahead at the bigger picture we often times forget the small pixels, the ones when joined together make a spectacular picture. On an end note all I would say is <i>"We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give." </i></div>
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A wallflower, a doormat. One who doesn't have a voice, no freedom no life! If, this is our first impression about 'her'; it is not she but us who need an education.</div>
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Good morning Toastmaster of the day, fellow Toastmasters and guests. I a modest woman of the 21st century pose to you a grave question. Are all women stereotypical? Some of you may agree, some disagree. Further down the line maybe you'll debate on their ethnicity. Asians may say middle-eastern are oppressed. The middle-eastern might pity the western women who are free and yet bound by clutches. While the west may have a similar opinion on the Asian counterpart. All lost! Every change in the vicious cycle of categorising women, sometimes by women themselves . But hey, have you ever bothered knowing what's beneath. Beneath the skin irrespective of colour, caste, religion and creed. There's a heart just like yours that beats.</div>
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On a more global and personal level, there are two imageries that are the most common ones; picture a muslim woman and the accompanying image comes with a burqa or an hijab that's the headscarf. And if the lady in question doesn't wear none then lightly put, she's more than likely to hear wow! You're a different liberal woman. Hello my dears!!! Is the outer covering or the lack of the only thing that describes me as a woman? She is covering herself she must be a religious conservative, shy and a victim of male domination. Poor soul doesn't even get a chance to voice her opinion. Oh my God isn't that harsh? Isn't that again stereotyping? How do we know she's all those things? Did we find it out first hand or like everyone else our first impression was made with the media image? Not everything is as it seems, true 10<span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space: pre;"> </span>% may fall under this convention but what about the rest? Take time to think before you reach a conclusion.</div>
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Another recent example of this can be the condition of certain women in the European countries. Let's take France for example, I'm sure everyone hears the news. The latest burkini ban! Duh what is that? It's just a term coined using burqa and a bikini, a beach wear designed for hijab and burqa clad ladies. India approves it, after all burkini beats bikini here any day. Alas! Peace is always short lived, there is always some or the other ban taking place somewhere in the world. Ban the hijab, ban the burkini, ban woman from voting yes yes it's the Vatican City, ban woman leaving home at night and ban the bikini too. Oh no no, the last one is okay, it's nothing to worry about. But in the 50s even woman donning bikini's were stereotyped as loose morals and banned by the church. Are they truly?</div>
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Why 50s even now when women wear short dresses or something that is not 'society' approved there is an uproar. So miss X was raped, it's her fault why was she flaunting herself to him and travelling alone at night, women are supposed to be in bed by 9. Or she had completely hidden herself in her veil, I'm a hot blooded man obviously I was curious, it is all her mistake. So much for woman liberation and equality where people judge us on the way we dress!</div>
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Stop double speaking, stop judging woman by what you see what you hear. Next time you see another woman, whatever her colour or attire be. Stop that brain of yours from wondering about how she is, you might be wrong. There's a saying 'Don't judge a book by its cover', so 'Stop judging and start embracing.'</div>
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Seeping into<br />
my very bones,<br />
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Cut open,<br />
my soul<br />
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Howling now they pass<br />
From me towards you.<br />
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Afloat you lay,<br />
Drenching in the frosty rain<br />
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Tearing like the red sea,<br />
Feeling the raw pain<br />
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Spurting water<br />
Gasping for air,<br />
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Bleak eyes gazing with solace.<br />
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Shivering<br />
Teeth clenched<br />
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I wake up from the daze,<br />
Chilling the rolling fears<br />
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Wrapped in a soothing caress<br />
The fog slowly drifts away<br />
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Awaiting warmth<br />
I lie with you in December days.<br />
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<i>-Fatima</i><br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-48614399193791200182015-08-06T23:19:00.001+05:302015-08-06T23:23:47.306+05:30One Step At a Time<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Dear Student,<br />
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<i>"To be a part of a child's life and celebrate his every little success forms the greatest moments of any teacher's life."</i><br />
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There are days, more like moments when you are downright confused, messy and in a haze of a crazy spiral mess. The more you share the more varied views or advice you receive. And if, you are not completely sane and in one of those moods it affects you the most, dampening your mood and spoiling your day. It's not just you whose affected but the people you hang out with; your colleagues and if you're a teacher the worst hit party are your students. They bear the brunt of your mood swings. But is it right or is it mental? It would be unwise to say, you're correct and blame your students for everything, <i>"Hey I was stressed out and you added to it"</i> or <i>"It's all your fault, kids these days I tell you no respect for elders or teachers."</i> et al. I mean it's easy to jot down excuses and blame others, why do we not look at our faults? It could have been us and not them.<br />
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From the past one week or so, I've been listening to this; <i>"You're too friendly or you care too much. It's okay to care for your friends and family. But there is a line between a student and a teacher. You shouldn't be friendly with them, at least not outside the class and blah blah." </i>End of story what all that yielded was;<br />
1. Not to be friendly to students.<br />
2. Only be strict.<br />
3. Do Not Care, there's a line that divides you.<br />
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I freaked up, big time. On one hand I've had some exceptionally awesome teachers, who went on caring for us like we were their own kids. And the best part was, they loved us; loved me, were friendly & caring, heard us out even if they couldn't help us and always, always gave us advice; not the bookish one but of their own experiences. And I realize we respected them, still do and even remember them, are in touch with them, if not all some. They taught well, maybe they weren't perfectionist, no one is or maybe they were. But they respected us, us students. And looking back now, I don't remember how they taught me or if, they ever made a goof-up in class, what I do clearly remember is, how they made me feel. Heck, they didn't even lose hope in me when I and my so-called friends thought I was a lost cause. After all, all we need is a bit of love, hope & lots of faith.<br />
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And today I finally took the courage to ask my mum, <i>"Hey what kind of a teacher were you?" </i>And you know what she told me? <i>"I was friendly, caring; I was new obviously so it was not a cake walk everyone is at one point but I maintained good relations both in and out of class. Experience and perfection in teaching comes with time, when delivering a lecture. But friendliness it should be there from the start. And what you need to have is patience, lots of patience."</i><br />
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This reminds me I read somewhere, <i>"It doesn't matter if your student is 5 years younger to you or 15, he or she is your student & if you treat them well, they will treat you well, and respect you." </i>After all to gain respect & friends one should be the same. You get what you give.<br />
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There will be hundred's of people who will advice you, but only ten will truly do and mean it. So today, my confusion has resolved and I'm sorry for being mean and selfish and for being angry when there was no need, anger is never the solution. I love you guys and that's it. I've loved every single student of mine that I've taught till date and In shaa Allah will do in future too.<br />
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And an ending quote, <i>"The best thing about being a teacher is that as they grow, we grow with them."</i><br />
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-love, Fatima<br />
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<i><u>P.S:</u></i> The opening and closing quotes of this letter are from, <a href="https://www.facebook.com/makeadiff" target="_blank">Make A Difference</a> page couldn't help but share. <br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-29421951036511171492015-05-20T20:28:00.000+05:302015-05-21T13:49:44.649+05:30Solitary Solitude <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Walking through the woods<br />
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A void engulfs and the air stills<br />
With none but just the sound of my boots.<br />
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Trodding the barren road<br />
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Submerging grief and kindling dreams<br />
Listening to the sloshing sound of my bare feet.<br />
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Strolling a bit further down<br />
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Pondering, the silence slowly flows<br />
Hearkening to the whooshing hush of my sitting knees.<br />
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Reaching the cold rock lastly<br />
Towards the untouched horizon, I see<br />
Watching the sky mesh in shades and hues<br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-32279253805204305622015-03-15T11:05:00.000+05:302016-08-15T23:18:22.034+05:30Betwixt <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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And there she lies with void bare..</div>
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Lonely and muddled as midnight moon</div>
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She shies away in the starry gloom..</div>
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Spring summer autumn and snow</div>
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She welcomes them all, all the same..</div>
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Longing hoping for moments unknown </div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-72674543159035594312014-12-14T17:58:00.000+05:302016-12-16T20:02:49.647+05:30A Winter Embrace <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i><a href="http://duskndawn-fatima.blogspot.in/2014/10/those-sunlit-nights.html" target="_blank">Prelude to This</a></i><br />
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She sat on the old wooden stool, her back in a rigid posture with her fingers nimbly playing a melody on the pianoforte. It was Schubert, one of her favourites. She had always loved the rough silky texture of the black and white keys, that when felt by her delicate fingers gave birth to a world of its own.<br />
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Her fingers came to a halt as she let out a tired sigh, the piece had ended. He was too mesmerized to even applaud. It was then when she curtsied to him, that he broke out of his trance and clapped. Realizing it was nearing sundown and that they were the only ones in the small chapel, he interrupted the quiet. <br />
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<i>“I fear the weather has taken a turn for the ghastly. Would you like a ride home mademoiselle?”</i> he spoke in a very aristocratic manner.<br />
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<i>“Ah! Just the offer I was waiting for my kind sir,”</i> she replied in earnest taking his proffered arm. <br />
Not able to hold it any longer, she let out a giggle at their playful disposition and he joined her. Finally letting themselves out in hopes of searching some abode, safe and sound. <br />
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The weather was exceptionally colder than the last time they had met; this time they were trapped in a small inn due to the sudden snowstorm that had invaded the city. Thankful to have found this inn at some walking distance from the chapel. The wood burning in the fireplace cast a glowing amber about the room, warming it. They sat huddled together on the hard wood polished floor nestling a cup of hot chocolate to warm their insides. They were covered from head to toe, but the shivering was yet to recede as they were wet from the rains earlier and the fresh falling snow. <br />
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<i>“I feel like trash. I thought I had one good thing in my life, so that I could start over. I didn’t know that sole being could mess me up more than anything I predicted. Each day I come across things that were mere lies. It’s sickening to know, so bad that unlike last time when I thought I was guilty I now realize I've just been a, prey.”</i> Ayah mumbled eyeing the fireplace.<br />
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Yasin let out a frigid breath before taking a sip from his cup. He was startled by the new revelations from Ayah, when she gave him a call a month ago. Patience and time were the only keys to heal her all over again, he realized.<br />
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<i>“You just don’t understand how to react. And it’s absolutely understandable that you’re hurting. Your life in real was never screwed, you gave him the power to rumple it. I daresay it was messed up and confusing but never really screwed.”</i> He responded.<br />
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<i>“The more you care the more you suffer. Nada zilch there is nothing that gives people the right to play with someone’s feelings and heart or as a matter of fact taking for granted. I’m sorry for all the troubles I've always caused you, even when you were nursing your own broken heart you were constantly there for me. However, would I repay your kindness?”</i> she cried in earnest. <br />
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<i>“Is it something we shouldn’t do then? Care?”</i> replied Yasin, in a tone of surprise and emotion, <i>“Do not embarrass me, for rather I am glad to have been there for you, as you have been for me,”</i> he added after a short pause.<br />
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Ayah, still being a bit distracted forged on, <i>“I don’t know, it’s an abstract thing. Care is more important than love. You always love people who you care for but the other way round is not always true. Love can be abusive and obsessive, care cannot.”</i> She paused letting go of the anxiety that gripped her, and forced herself to speak; <i>“I’ve realized not to store my happiness nor sadness in people. They leave us when someone new comes along. And maybe even we leave some. It’s a fast forward world Yasin, you can’t find people waiting for you.” </i><br />
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The conversation had like always reached a point of vulnerability. There was too much said, felt and left unsaid too.<br />
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<i>“It taught me to have faith,” said he, “don’t be too sentimental nor wear your heart on your sleeve. People find it easier to exploit you then. But then again don’t become a cold stoic person, who I was on the verge of becoming. Had it not been your frank temperament and playful optimistic outlook, I would have been lost.” </i><br />
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Ayah colored at that and let out a laugh as she replied, <i>“Ah! Yes, you’ve seen me at my best and my worst too. I should not have brushed off your affections all those years ago, would have saved me the heartache.”</i><br />
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<i>“I was certainly wary and devoid of wisdom. I am sure if I was more open and persistent, things would have been different. And we would have never had the misfortune to cross people who left us scarred. Then again, in retrospection I believe it was for the best. The past teaches us awfully lot, doesn’t it?” </i>he asked in an expecting manner.<br />
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<i>“It does, it surely does,”</i> replied she.<br />
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Uncovering his hands from the woolen mittens and doing the same with hers, he swiftly stood up proffering his hand to her,<i> “May I have the honor to secure the next dance? I believe it’s a waltz,” </i>Yasin asked her politely with mischief filled eyes.<br />
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It was indeed the music for waltz that could be heard playing down in the inn ballroom. A blush rose on her cheeks as she daintily placed her hands in his, <i>“It will be my pleasure Sir,”</i> replied she with elation as he led her to the makeshift dance floor. <br />
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She could not help smiling at his ease with her, their delightful companionship and most of all his invaluable support and guidance in her time of need. Time passed tardily as snow covered the whole town white, welcoming bliss in the peak of winter. <br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-43065091701245660072014-11-22T22:55:00.000+05:302014-11-22T23:13:42.379+05:30Small Towns<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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With no one to truly call your own..</div>
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Peace serenity</div>
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Oh no! You've landed on an alien land..</div>
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It's to be seen every night and day..</div>
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Only if we could abandon the city's galore..</div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-16044881050033981632014-11-12T11:52:00.001+05:302014-11-12T12:01:41.023+05:30Mon Amie <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
We are so foolish, so utterly naive that when someone is good to us, we feel they are the sunshine after rain. Red, orange, green, blue like the colours of the rainbow. And no; no talking about lovers and crushes or someone you're simply attracted to. This is someone you think of as a friend. It is important to be a friend before anything else.<br />
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Leap of faith, liking someone and expecting them to reciprocate; that's love. But what about friendship? Do we expect there or cease expectations the moment we befriend. What about wanting to be surprised by an unselfish gesture is it too much to ask, from a very close friend? It's all a twisted labyrinth of strewn hopes and dwindling emotions. All you wished for was a moment of companionship, sometimes it's too much to ask and other-times it's all you need.<br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-14156886285173114172014-11-02T13:36:00.001+05:302014-11-02T13:36:29.022+05:30A Pair of Shoes<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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rough worn and battered </div>
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travelling from town to town</div>
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now lost in archive </div>
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<i><b>Photo Credits:</b> Oil Painting - A Pair of Shoes by Vincent Van Gogh, 1886.</i></div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-22829685460067469602014-10-27T20:35:00.000+05:302014-11-12T11:55:22.931+05:30Distance<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I haven't heard from you<br />
In five months<br />
And twenty-eight days<br />
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The soft sigh<br />
After a tiring day<br />
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The secret smile<br />
That graced your face<br />
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Sometimes mirth<br />
Other times rue<br />
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The ones I could listen<br />
Even from miles away<br />
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I haven't heard from you<br />
For so long<br />
But your voice still resonates.<br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-41711073788940195852014-10-16T15:58:00.000+05:302014-10-16T15:58:10.456+05:30Regret<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-936828718195357472014-10-10T00:15:00.001+05:302016-12-16T20:02:49.651+05:30Those Sunlit Nights<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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The sun was slowly growing dim. They were sitting on an isolated bench eyeing the frozen expanse of the sweet unsalted lake. Days like these were his favourite; snow laden mountains, chilly winds and memories. He often heard people say, winters harden your heart yet to him they bought warmth. A box of nostalgic memories leaving him barren like his favourite oak tree but wrapped in hope.<br />
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Letting out a puff of foggy breath he spoke, <i>"Weird isn't it people could never love you, even though you gave them your everything. And still these are the very same people who eventually fall in love with another, hating you and damaging you to the core. So much damage that the world around you thinks you want love in your life; like a love affair or even marriage out of love. When in reality you are questioning love and the idea behind it, whether you will be loved or will love someone. You're scared.." </i>he hastily ended heaving a sigh.<br />
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She held his mitten covered palms in hers tightly not knowing what to respond. How does a grieving heart mend another? She didn't want to lie or maybe she couldn't. It was a short while later that she began speaking her voice soft,<br />
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<i>"Sometimes you're hurt to such an extent that even though tears fall from your eyes, there is no pain in your heart. You are numb and all you feel like is to drown yourself in despair, or to hug someone tightly or if you're like me consume caffeine. But sadly none help, not a single one. Moreover the reason due to whom you're in this state, doesn't bother or maybe never did," </i>although her voice verged the near of tears she continued, <i>"I wish to get wet in the rains and pour out all my tears, maybe, maybe then there will be pain and the numbness subside.."</i><br />
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Time passed languidly as she let the tears finally fall, crying for all those moments that made her nostalgic. She cried, cried for them both and truly letting go of the past. Hugging her deeply, he embraced his present as she did hers too. The mellifluous melancholy orchestrated a symphony in cacophony as the sun lastly set.<br />
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<a href="http://duskndawn-fatima.blogspot.in/2014/12/a-winter-embrace.html" target="_blank"><i>Sequel to This</i></a></div>
Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com10tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-56003698342202073362014-10-06T12:31:00.000+05:302014-10-06T12:31:01.547+05:30Absence of Joy<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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bare soulless standing all alone</div>
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withering away in cold</div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-74240627303567291722014-09-29T13:43:00.000+05:302014-09-29T14:01:14.512+05:30Winter<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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barren land remains</div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-36555500168296457582014-09-11T23:01:00.000+05:302014-09-11T23:53:51.125+05:30Love Letter Writing Contest: Love, Lost And Found<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<i><b>Note:</b> This story was written in October 2013, for a short story contest. Although I didn't win it, I decided to share it out here. I know it's a bit late but those days my blog was closed and better late than never :)</i><br />
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It was half past six and the last rays of sun were slowly setting welcoming the pinkish hues with fading blue, when a knock on the door startled her. Though it was early dusk it was a little uncommon for a visitor at this time. Keeping aside the partly folded clothes, she got up slowly and opened the door.<br />
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“Sorry for the late hour madam, these are some letters we accidentally came across. It seems they were sent years ago but somehow couldn't reach the intended person. They are addressed to a certain Miss Aaliya, can you call her please.” Said the postman.<br />
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“It is me. And letters for me? Who would write to me? Anyways thank you.” Aaliya took the letters and stood at the door for a whole minute. Closing the door she headed for her bed and began inspecting the coverings, there were a million questions swarming her mind. The envelope looked rugged, the color too was fading and the ink on the cover was discolored when she caught sight of a faded name. A sudden sense of nostalgia gripped her, flickering with past memories she took the letters with trembling hands and began reading.<br />
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<i>July 25th, 1940</i><br />
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<i>Dear Aaliya,</i><br />
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<i>Tough and tumultuous times lie ahead. And so here I am, sitting down to pen down a letter in the hope that all my love reaches you. I am not quite assured that I will have the chance to send this to you anytime soon. Yet I write to keep the faith alive in both you and I.</i><br />
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<i>The sun is going down and we are surrounded with nothing but infinite stretch of gleaming water. I don’t really know where we are at the moment, maybe in the Pacific Ocean. But I don’t wish to discuss the state of affairs here nor the perils of being at war. I wish to feel loved and remain positive.</i><br />
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<i>It’s been such a long time that I last saw you, the twinkle in your eyes and the innocence in your smile. Sometimes I feel I don’t belong here, I feel like coming running back to you. I liked it there, the rainy days and the messy fields. Those carefree days when we sat arm in arm under the banyan tree gazing at the serene blue sky, envisioning an independent future. There was a kind of magical silence still the calmness didn’t haunt me.</i><br />
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<i>Here too, I gaze at the sky seeing it change colors from time to time. However, my dear I don’t feel the tranquility I felt then. Hours pass by in the silent night as I keep on pondering of the catastrophe awaiting. It is uncertain, even more uncertain than the rains. And then an unknown fear grips me, what will happen tomorrow? Will a bright sunshine greet me or the night cloak me forever. It is in those moments I question my decision and realization dawns, I chose this mission to protect people, to protect you.</i><br />
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<i>I doubt my sweetheart I can continue anymore, I must at once leave for we’re being called upon. I will write at every chance I get, do not be uneasy for when you don’t receive my letters. I promise to post them the moment my feet touch the land.</i><br />
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<i>Give my love to my father, tell him I’m safe.</i><br />
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<i>Your Beloved,</i><br />
<i>Imraan</i><br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-56049135128779699002014-09-07T13:05:00.001+05:302017-02-13T11:32:04.780+05:30Colloquy in Cold <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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It was nearing eventide, the quaint cafe at the end of the cobblestone road was nearly vacated. A band of youngsters were crooning to some soft acoustic music filling the café with mellow notes.<br />
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She was sitting across him nestling a cup of warm black coffee in the confines of her mitten covered palms. Winters, coffee, conversations and them, they were the only things that remained unchanged in a sea of time, careers and friendships. The only ones they looked forward to every year. One thing led to another, and laughter breezed through them.<br />
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"I suspect highly that sharing our feelings make us raw to being vulnerable. It’s better to not share because sometimes, some things are best locked in the crevices of our hearts and minds. You know it is not good when someone knows us to the point of vulnerability. It’s like they can exploit you and you can’t even put a stop to it," Ayah swift-ed the chat.<br />
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Having known each other for the past eight years he was not at all surprised by the sudden change in conversation. Yasin nibbled the last of his biscuit before reciprocating back to her.<br />
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"Sometimes you let people know you, and you do that to fight your own loneliness. Some might say, I prefer my solitude but aren't they the same people whose face lights up in the company of others. Aren't they susceptible to vulnerability? The smile that brightens their moment gives away more than words ever can. You know you aren't really vulnerable until you let yourself be."<br />
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"I wish I could hug you, but we both know how afraid I am. Afraid to trust someone all over again," she responded softly continuing to gaze outside seeing the rain loudly lashing the window pane. <br />
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<i>-Fatima</i><br />
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<i><a href="http://duskndawn-fatima.blogspot.in/2014/10/those-sunlit-nights.html"><b><span style="color: #0b5394;">Part II</span></b></a></i></div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com16tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-15123698751425252182014-06-19T21:34:00.001+05:302016-08-15T23:20:53.680+05:30Deep Within<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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I lay there wide awake..</div>
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Bathing in the pearly light of the moon..</div>
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Trying hard to bind myself in shackles..</div>
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And hold my heart in a cage..</div>
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But yet again today looking at the starlit sky..</div>
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Tears slowly stream down my face</div>
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As my heart whispers your name..</div>
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-66002160685334762132013-07-23T16:05:00.000+05:302013-07-23T16:05:37.088+05:30Rainbow..<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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With you standing by my side </div>
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My soul is free from misery.</div>
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<i>This short story was written for <a href="http://www.indianbloggersleague.com/">IBL (Indian Bloggers League)</a>, organised by <a href="http://www.writeupcafe.com/ibl">Write-Up Cafe</a>. I represent Westerlies- Winds of Change, which is the West Zone side. This short story was selected as the best s</i><i>hort story </i><i>of West Zone and hence has been submitted for the final round.</i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Feeling the contours of the old leather bound journal, I ran my fingers idly through the pages taking in the snippets I had written not so long ago. Writing was not a ritual but more of a way of preserving the memoirs of every place and emotion that touched me. I’m a wanderer and exploring the unknown is something that fuels my soul. It’s been nearly two years I left sailing to pursue the other adventurous side of me, exploring different countries intimately, meeting different people and acquainting to their diverse culture. Life is like a blank notebook waiting to be filled up, with not just memories and journeys but also with what we’ve learnt from these journeys. Sometimes they make us nostalgic with happiness, other times with anguish. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I’m not much of a patriotic person but I’m not a misanthropic either. I’m loyal to everyone but of late I’ve realized that the world is harsher than one can imagine. It is full of people who are cold and bigoted. It hardly matters who you are or where you belong. All that matters is power; power as a means to acquire dominance in economics and politics, religious demands or making their voice heard. Terrorizing and causing fear in the minds of people who do not share the same set of belief. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It was one such excursion three months ago where I witnessed a lone local gunman killing locals in the name of anarchism. One of my closest mate died in that attack. It scarred me and made me question everything I ever learnt and saw. Actions define us but what about the actions that defame the very foundation of brotherhood and equality. It was a small attack, far smaller than what the world has witnessed but it made my soul recoil and all I wished at that very moment was to disappear to some place safe to clear my mind of such unpleasant thoughts. It’s difficult cutting yourself from the world but I needed something to reassure me. I’m not much of an emotional person and I cannot be diabolical by stating everyone to be the same but at the moment I didn’t expect people to understand me nor did I wish for them to empathize with me. And for that very reason I took to nature, a place where there are no people waiting with armour to attack me or slit my soul for being an outsider in their world. In a place where though I would be alone yet won’t be an intruder. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">“We all have episodes in our lives that we wish to forget and it is this one time I wish to turn back. It’s almost like I don’t wish to go back to embracing my life like it was earlier. Nor can I believe that one simple act of terror has me so immobilised that I have retreated from the mortal world. Or is it the fact that my friend succumbed to such an act of terror that has affected me I know not. It is almost like my faith that people are not prejudiced has absolved” I spoke in an almost hushed and puzzled tone. </span></i><br />
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<i><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">She sighed. Looking at me she spoke, “I know where you are coming from. But there are times when we can’t stop things from happening, no matter how ghastly they are. Change is inevitable. Things happen in our life over which we have no control but to maintain our sanity we have to let go of them and move ahead. We can’t turn time back and reverse the loss but we can move forward and help others who need nursing and care. It is one thing to withdraw from everyone for a while but another to lose oneself in self pity and misery forever.”</span></i><br />
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Fatimahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09407541725369570472noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2436531361136920211.post-50612476997828223292013-05-14T01:55:00.000+05:302013-10-17T14:44:38.239+05:30Sliding Doors<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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From being an article trainee to becoming a full time Chartered Accountant; it was at this very office that my career shaped up. This is where I attained success and accolades for my upbeat performance. But my hard-work and hard-earned success suddenly didn’t matter as I looked around the room, staring at the faces of my fellow colleagues. Some were sad while the majority of them were averting their gazes while some silently talked amongst themselves.</span><br />
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<i>“I feel so sorry for Aliyah, poor girl what was her mistake but then again we can’t let her roam freely around us too can we? What if, even we fall victim to it?”</i></span><br />
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Life seems smooth on the surface at one moment but one never knows the undercurrents below and when they finally surface out, you are left in a whirlpool of emotions with no place to go. Just an accident and a blood transfusion cost me everything. My career was over, my dreams shattered. And people who were my life, friends and family too grew distant.</span><br />
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Sighing softly I wondered would it have been any different, had I not been an HIV+? There were a million thoughts racing in my mind to which I had no answers; is the society really fair like it preaches to be and does it let everyone live in peace? To me it didn’t look impartial anymore and I felt as if I was living in an illusion all these years.</span><br />
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For days I kept myself locked in the confines of my home, roamed streets like a lost soul. Was I guilty and are people really ignorant? But it wasn’t my mistake then why was I being blamed? A million questions plagued me and I was drowning in pools of depression. I tried to see past everything but the tears came down stronger and the reality of my situation came crashing down on me like a nightmare. </span><br />
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The days passed slowly, maybe even months had gone by and eventually I lost count of them. Thoughts of what-if ran in my mind like an infinite loop and I couldn’t find a way out. Once I even wished to end my life but I didn’t have the courage when I thought of my parents whom I still loved. With nothing much to do I cast the shadow of doubt and decided to venture out of my home for long walks. It was during one such walk that I stumbled across an NGO that counseled people like me. At first I was hesitant to approach them as fear cobbled me down but after a mental talk that I could not ruin myself more I enrolled, where I was given both proper medicinal guidance and counseling. And it was there that I first met Yasin; he too like me was HIV+ and was a counselor there. Meeting Yasin was the best thing to happen to me, he was the first person I befriended and talked freely in months and surprisingly he was both caring and a pillar of strength.</span><br />
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Time passed by but the struggles and hardships didn’t end. I worked in the NGO at morning managing the accounts and taught underprivileged children at another NGO in evening, glad that at least not everyone shunned people like me to make ends meet in this hostile society. For the next two years I survived in terrible economic hardships without the help from friends and family saving as much money as possible. I was not aloof to my medical condition and knew only money could help in time of need.</span><br />
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A year later Yasin suggested that I not let go of my dreams and start a small Chartered Accountancy firm. Though the idea seemed too far-fetched at that time it was not impossible. Then again setting up the company was not an easy job; there were several pitfalls. Right from renting a room, to the bank sanctioning the loan, hiring employees and getting clients. But recruiting employees was the hardest task not only was I a woman but an HIV+ woman and so, many shunned me. The West was comparatively more accepting but it felt like the society I was raised in didn’t want to see things from a different perspective. And it was at times like these when all I wanted to do was give up. But with Yasin’s support and help from NGO’s I started believing in myself and my dream again. Slowly but steadily the times changed, the society, my family accepted us and we finally made a place for ourselves.</span><br />
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Today Ten years later I can’t believe I’m standing on the podium of the college I graduated from receiving the <i>“Inspirational Entrepreneur Award.”</i> To say I’m not proud of my achievements and my husband Yasin’s faith in me would be an understatement. When the world was against me and I had lost all hopes, he was the one who harbored faith in me and encouraged my dream. I would like to thank the medical science for their advancement and their efforts in igniting the minds of people. Also a heart-felt Thank You to Yasin for supporting me always and my two year old daughter who has brightened my life.</span><br />
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The plot of the movie is nothing out of the box that leaves you gaping for more but the star cast is good with the acting being very poignant and natural. Unlike most movies that are action oriented with less interaction, this one is dialogue oriented and character driven. This is the best aspect especially for people who love movies that relate to real life and not just the glamour of an alternate world that doesn't exist. </div>
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The movie stays true to its word and there is full on drama involved in their everyday life. Ayushmann Khurrana and Kunaal Roy Kapur keep the story flowing with timed humor, comic punches and loads of dramebaazi. The movie kicks of as a flashback with a sappy Ram Parmar: RP (Ayushmann Khurrana) a stage actor hugging a teddy bear and reminiscing how he met Mandar Lele (Kunal Roy Kapur) dubbed as <i>'zakhmi narcissist'</i> by RP's girlfriend who was on the verge of committing suicide; only to be saved by Ram who takes him home thereby turning his own life topsy-turvy. </div>
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Although the pace of the movie is slow, it is clean and crisp with no loose ends. The music is light making you want to groove and compliments the movie beautifully at every step. Also the cinematography is good unfolding Mumbai artistically. </div>
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Like every movie, this movie too has it's flaw. And sadly the pace is not it's weak point but the characterization of Nandini the female lead. Her acting does not look natural but more of a overdone made up act that doesn't really gel with the smooth flow of the movie and other actors. </div>
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Lastly, though the storyline has a little flaw but overall it is acceptable. After a series of not so satisfying movies in the recent past few days this one is genuinely pleasant both story-wise and performance wise. </div>
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Overall the movie ends up holding the audience till the very end and so I give it a 3.5 out of 5.</div>
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