Unending Night

Go away...

Goodbye forever...

My justifications were nothing but trash you said.

Ranted and raved that I hurt you...

Breaking your trust and stabbing your heart...

You blamed and let me go.

And now I sit here all alone,

Staring into the oblivion with love and tear filled eyes...

Waiting will you ever realize ??

Love was then,

Love is now...

Love will never be someone else..

As love will forever be you...

-Fatima

Fading

Sometimes you defy your own destiny,

Sometimes you alone are responsible for the woes in your life..

Sometimes you love so much that it becomes suffocation,

Sometimes your truth becomes your lie..

Sometimes you break friendships with your own hands..

Sometimes you be honest and the honesty backfires,

Sometimes you want to cry and not a tear falls..

Sometimes you stab and betray when all you wanted was not too..
Sometimes you know it was love but it comes across as something else...
Sometimes you  are only the cause of your shattered self,

Sometimes you deserve...deserve to be alone and isolated..

Coz sometimes you snatch your own hope and break the one you love...

-Fatima

Breathless Breathing....

She walks on a broken path,
With broken hopes and dreams...
Trying to find her way out of the dark.

Gazing at stark bleak night,
With no one by her side...
She sobs letting out the tears buried deep inside...

Immeasurable infinite...
Is the blackness that surrounds,
Struggling to evade it she treads all alone...

Love is the reason they say,
Love is deception they cry...
But its only love that can heal and release !

-Fatima

Nothing Else Mattered....

Nothing Else Mattered…

Sweet as sixteen,

Lavish was her living,

Innocent and carefree she was…

Eschewed from the worldly harm,

She was secure in her haven!

Rough and rugged,

Life was an utter mess,

Lost and forlorn he was…

Dying day in and day out,

Struggling to make ends meet!

Different like chalk and cheese they were,

Pride and honour she exuded,

And people watched her in awe…

Disgrace and derision trickled,

When he crossed the very same path!

Like a wisp of air,

She came in his crumpled life,

Caressing his dripping wounds…

Showering love and care,

She gave him a new life!

Hugs and kisses he smothered,

Saying money was not his pleasure,

Basking and gleaming in his love…

Missing the greed in his eyes,

She fantasized a fairytale!

Clouded by dismay and despair,

Her cries tore her apart,

Breaking her like glass…

Leaving her barren and frozen,

They now call her an ice maiden!

She had loved him dearly,

But he didn’t really care,

Wishful had turned wistful…

With tears pelting from her eyes,

Yet they couldn’t melt the hardened ice!

Lusting for her fortune,

Slitting her soul,

He walked in azure…

Blood dripping like rain,

The stains on his hands shined unashamed!

Devoid of emotions,

He was now a voracious soul,

Faltering in the neon red lights…

Drinking and squandering,

He gave himself to a wench!

Nothing was his and all in vain,

Laughing at his own madness,

He fuddled all day and night…

Losing his own self,

He walked the long dark abyss!

Squashed by his guilt,

Clutching his head he fell to the ground…

Tears blurring his vision,

He drowned in his pain…

Till death finally came!

- Fatima

Random Musings #1

Random Musings #1

Well this is not some series or anything of a particular genre, this one will just contain things that are mere abstractions it could be just dissecting particular emotions or life in general. Another important thing is this is not about me the reason I mentioned this is, since I usually have a soft corner for melancholic writings people feel I'm sad and temme to cheer up that's not done :-/ so I thought of informing prior :D 

This particular post is inspired by this pic and written in first person...Hope you enjoy reading! Do give your valuable feedback :)

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Until Forever’s Gone…

It was nearing midnight and my mood was surprisingly languid, it was that particular moment when I didn’t feel like thinking or following the practicalities of life and society but to let my mind and heart reel freely. I sat there perching besides the window seating idly murmuring songs that seemed like some incoherent mumbling but it hardly mattered as I had none to please and just soothe myself.

 It was in moments like these when I wondered how it would feel to revel in you and bask in your love, to love and to be loved back by you! But tonight astonishingly a certain unknown fear gripped me amplifying my pulse rate turning my beat and breath erratic, it was then that I realized that I was too sensitive and terribly lonely; I somehow didn’t realize when the phase from being social turned solitary but it sure was a gradual process. In a flash love seemed a farfetched thing and all that I needed now was a friend, a person who befriended me despite my flaws, my uncanny nature and my fickle mood swings because even I was no ideal perfect person. Letting out a sigh I crawl back to my bed and wait for weariness to take over and lull me to sleep taking me to the world of dreams where life though is not full of glee but someone somewhere is there with me.

In moments of despair,

It’s not always love that you need,

It’s just a true and caring friend that will suffice.

-Fatima

Post #7

Post #7

A continuation from this series...Post #6

Sitting on the rough rocks,

The harsh wind blows by...

Seeing his love and longing,

The sky too cries...

-Fatima

P.S: This time I thought of just summing up all the feelings that Mayank is going through just in some four lines, a new experiment for me...I thought of 55 words fiction but settled for this. The shorter the sweeter..do give in your valuable views :) 

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Yearning For You....

Yearning For You....

Close yet so apart,

Though not really afar,

The distance makes me shrill...

Wanting me to hold you,

Near to my heart.

With every ebb and tide,

A nebulous anguish engulfs me...

And the warm mellow feeling fades,

Stabbing me to the core,

And tears threaten to fall...

As I languish in amour...

-Fatima 

Recluse.....

But I know it ain't that easy,

To cry in the night and wear a smile in morn,

I sigh and let out a small plea to the God above,

To help me forget and move on......

And give me strength to trod all alone....

 

P.S: I'm not moaning neither am I whining nor do I wish for sympathy or pity like some people may accuse me of, I'm just letting out trying to pour.......

-Fatima

Languished in the Moonlight !

I really dunno why I wrote this poem, I was studying for my exam that is tomorrow but this thought just kept on haunting me dunno why? and just to free my mind I ended up writing this. I really dunno if, I've done justice or what I've written is making sense and is looking like a poem...or not...but I just had to pour out my emotions. Please give your honest reviews.

 Languished in the Moonlight !

The day has ended and the moon is in up-rise,

And the stars shine in the seamless black night,

The light goes down as a smoky aura engulfs,

The starry night is not silent anymore,

As the creatures of dark are on the roar.

The voracious souls now slowly ooze,

Where liquor is dew and vile is not anew,

Girls are slaughtered and fear is in sight,

As innocence is tarnished and lust is in the air,

And green notes no longer curb despair.

The fiesta is now livid and live,

Pleas and cries are spread wide, 

As the poor souls are openly advertised,

The wails and howls are now suppressed,

And the night goes cold and wild.

-Fatima

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P.S: Something that should not be ignored and nor should be called as stupidity on the girls part as some people say, though it's a social crime it is unavoidable at times due to circumstances.(Yes, I know people who say it's foolishness to go into the flesh trade but no one goes willingly you need to understand that rather than blaming them)

The starless black night !

The poem below has nothing to do with me, I watched something today and it was related to submissive women and women who have to undergo a lot in their life ! 

I was so touched by their condition that I couldn't help but let these thoughts evade me and thought of writing an article but ended up with a poem. Don't know whether I'm doing justice or not, hopefully I am.

The starless black night !

Sleep is a thing of past,

As love and longing has quelled my heart,

I was in distress and my soul squeaked,

For once please set me free.

Slowly days turn into night,

Yet euphoria is hard to find,

And my soul languishes in love,

Murmuring, just one more time.

 

Searching from door to door,

I realize I’m trapped inside,

Where factual is also a façade,

As life has turned into a haze.

I try to set myself free,

But end up molding myself to thee,

As quiescence and innocence is no longer there,

And sham has made its place there.

Starring at the seamless black sky,

Escapes nothing but a sigh,

And tears roll down my cheek,

As I realize I have a long journey to complete.

-Fatima

Tears Are Words D Heart Can't Express........

Does it happen to you? Do you feel tht you wanna break down n cry...cry till the moment you feel u've emptied ur heart of the worries and misiries tht have bounded you? Do you ever feel u wanna shed a tear, bt ur nt able to? Why? God damn why is it so hard to let go....let go of emotions and feelings tht evoke a sense of nostalgia & give rise to hope ....combined with disparity ....why do ya always feel more than you see? & still there is a carving fr more and u just don't let go, wherein u should.....

Why do you feel you r being reflected in daily walks of life, some part of yourself is seen in movies ..stories..or just anythng else...in general life is just interwoven ...a big blanket of love and coziness protects us from the harsh mornings and chilly nights...Do u eva notice tht deep down ur heart; ur heart desires simple joys and gains happiness from them....Have u ever felt the urge of hugging someone..??..it could just be anyone & be comfortable in their arms ...and weep silently onto their shoulders out of happiness and a feeling of security ....Have you..??...

Have you really truly loved someone; and felt like living for them...or do you wish to do tht ....The ans is definately a YES...we all need love ..without it no one can survive neither you nor me....and who says no is feigning and living a lie ...life cannot be lived truly though it is enigmatic and illusory at times....it's worth !! And when you don't have words to thank God for this wondeful life, full of wonderful people n tears well up in ur eyes ...coz tears are the language of the heart and the one who mistakens tears as only sorrow and signs of weakness are truly fools of d first order.....never looked beneath, never felt the need ..always led a superficial life....neva listen to them..tht ur weak and need to get on with life, coz deep down you knw ur not a melancholic person... ur a happy and a vibrant soul with deep emotions in d heart ........ 

And always remember 

"Tears have a different meaning in a different place; all you need to do is to Understand the Hidden Messages...Time n Again.."