Yearning

Yearning

The sky turned a shade darker and the cool breeze wafted mingled with pleasant rains recreating an aura of mellifluous melody. She sat by the window pane idly eyeing the swaying bloom outside, repressing the hurt and tears waiting to be unleashed. Reminiscing him and his love she finally cries letting out a sigh.

P.S: The story is made up of 54 words, 55th word is the title.

-Fatima

EPHEMERAL AURA

Disclaimer:

This is a work of fiction and holds no resemblance to anyone living or dead but my pure imagination.

EPHEMERAL AURA (Nathan-Patricia-Emily)

A short series in which I’ll highlight Nathan's behavior post Patricia walked in his life and how he is struggling to accept the fact that somewhere down the line he has betrayed Emily and also the thought process of what are Patricia ’s motives. 

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Prologue:

Change is the law of life but what if a blast from your past shows up and disrupts the peace and tarnishes the innocence. Is there really something you can do to stop the changes or you must accept fate and go with the flow.

-Fatima

Love.....Is It ??

Love.....Is It ?? 

"For one human being to love another is perhaps the most difficult of our tasks; the ultimate, the last test and proof; the work for which all other work is but preparation."

~ Rainer Maria Rilke

Off lately my thoughts seem to revolve around love, yes love nothing new yet it is! I've been coming across several magazines and articles and they all seem to concern about relationships and how...How to make a woman fall in love with you and vice-versa and some other relating to this matter! And then one fine day just out of the blue or after just one meeting you pronounce "This is the one".  

Well quite a time since I mused over this subject, as I literally had drowned myself in melancholy and left no place for love in my life; well don't know if this is entirely true or just another fiction of my mind that it has cooked up to not accept the harsh realities of life or otherwise. Since all I do is that and not let out the true things that are hidden deep within, with this one I just hope to know myself more. I guess I should stop rambling though I know its all haywire and vague but that's the way it is, let me just begin before you run away.

I wonder really wonder now-a-days if, most people out here have any damn idea what love really means? Or feel its endless depth and flights of infinite passion. I am no one to comment on this fact, because I fear believing in love or rather I fear accepting love out loud, reasons still unknown to me but what I do know, believe and truly feel is that love is more of emotions and understanding. Some of my friends might be shocked reading this as just two days back I was fighting with myself over the existence of love and doubting it to the fullest when my heart knew love does exist and hence this post, coming back to where I was. In an age of  instant gratification and casual sex and one night stands or rather just a casual fling where love is more about physical presence, gifts and constant conversing with each other rather than emotional and a spiritual connect, would they accept years of separation and hardships, minimal meeting...let alone conversing with each other and just a faint chance of being united? Not to mention there are people who endure all this but it's quite rare, ain't it? 

The recent trend being "Break k Baad" or rather "Move On" (Fast Track :D) be a better option? Asked a friend some days back to whom I didn't talk for long..."How is it between you and your boyfriend?" The instant answer that popped up was, Ah! We broke up some 2 months back....when 2 months back she claimed He is the One...my-o-my !! And when the subject of conversation is me...my friends remark; forget him, move on you'll meet someone else and so on......What I don't get is, how do you stop loving someone so damn fast? If, my friends if at all read this they're gonna bash me up, though I know they won't read as most of the times they find my write ups esp. the ones on Love to be ludicrous as they feel I don't believe a word of what I write and all...and maybe some might even stop talking to me saying, you think we are like this? This is our view on love? but hello I'm just saying in general nothing personal. But keeping that apart where was I? yep, Do these people really know what love is, the sacrifice and the pains it invariably demands or the passion and zeal that keeps you trudging till the end? Maybe I'm sounding ludicrous to some but then even I agree on this that when love is painful and abusive its advisable to move away but just minor disagreements and not giving time or freedom... no freedom is not the correct word say just the slight signs of troubles and the relationship is snapped. "Forever" is mere weeks or months!

And that is the very reason my confusion and fear for love takes birth, nevertheless I love and that too wholeheartedly though it remains unrequited! Call me mad or just a person who is stalking someone and not truly loving and caring or label my love as infatuation or anything else as a matter of fact, but I can't deny my love though it means just silently loving knowing that person will maybe never reciprocate coz, I know and believe that there will hardly be anyone will truly understand me and my love and the extent of my love and without knowing just label it call me whimsical and what not...but does it matter? No, doesn't matter anymore as I'm tired of fighting and now I just want to lead myself to where my love and my destiny takes me. On an ending note I'm reminded of the words by Jimmie Davis and Charles Mitchell, 

"You are my sunshine,

My only sunshine....

You make me happy,

When the skies are Grey;

You'll never know dear

How much I love you,

Please don't take my sunshine away!"

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-Fatima

       

With all my heart !

Well first off...the title of this poem dunno why but I wanted to write this one...could have named it something else but couldn't !!

This poem is dedicated to someone close as in for someone in my family...!! Those who know me do know !!

With all my heart !]

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when the sun shines,

But also when the moon lingers on in the night.

 I wanna be there with you,

Not only when your exploring the hills,

But also when your stuck in a ravine.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when the smile gleams in your eyes,

But also when frown catches your sight.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when your friends are by your side,

But also when adversity strikes.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when you fly high,

But also when you fall from the sky.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when your brimming with joy of your newborn,

But also when you have nothing to say at all.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when the days are long,

But also when the night is going on.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only when you walk straight,

But also when your taking your last breath.

I wanna be there with you,

Not only because you love me,

But also because I love you, now and forever.

-Fatima 

Eternal Feeling...

It’s so very beautiful to fall in love … really even better than what I watched in movies and read in novels. Now I realize watching love reading about love and seeing people in love is nothing compared to being in love… the bliss and the contentment can only be felt when you’re truly in love with someone.

Love is not to want but to give, give yourself selflessly.. I at times wonder why people feel that when love is one sided it fades away I do get that it remains incomplete but then if your love is true how can it fade away ?? how can that phase pass away so soon ?? I do know that it is very painful really painful to see that the one you love doesn’t love you back … but then why grieve ? no point in it… At least you can be happy with the times you shared and the memories you made! They’ll  always be close to your heart and soul.

In life there is nothing incomplete if you feel it is then there’s a lot more to it you just need to wait for the time being coz life doesn’t leave anything incomplete god does complete it and returns it to us some way or the other. What really matters in the end is the faith and hope that is there in your heart…coz Wait is Hope!!