Paper is Patient than Man !!
At this moment instead of penning down this write up which technically isn’t a write up but just an emotional vent out, I should be doing my mid-term seminar report whose submission is due tomorrow but somehow I just can’t concentrate on the task at hand and ended up crying now that’s really silly of me….lol I can’t believe I was unable to cry some days back and now I’m crying as if some tragedy has befallen me…
So much so that I’ve distanced myself from people whom I call friends, hardly feel like talking to them though none may agree to it coz I still keep on chattering non-stop and the reason is I don’t want those guys to worry about me…on a serious note I really dunno how many of them really and actually care..but it doesn’t matter anymore you see…and even the fact that I hardly feel like socializing and meeting buddies, I can’t avoid the ones I meet everyday can I ?? Hell no, if I do so I’ll be labeled as Anti-Social and hey I can’t even bear that tag…messed up you see…
I’m such a tube light at times…A friend of mine had requested me to write a poem on Independence Day..but I got so stuck up in work that I forgot about it until today morning…I felt like I wish I had taken some time out from the hectic schedule for myself and written something what’s the point in running away...but was I really running away I dunno ?? If, yes then from whom myself or the world….guess me only I don’t really care about the world anymore apart from the people who make my world and are a part of it…and I really miss some of them though lemme be true to you…there are barely 3-4 people who comprise in my little world :) and I love them to the core..they are those who I call my friends….on Saturday I was missing one of them as it was Rakshabhandan and today like always I’m missing one such friend a lot, doesn’t mean I don’t miss others but sometimes its someone specific and that feeling just can’t be expressed or explained, Absence and Distance does make the heart grow fonder…earlier just quoted it for the sake of it and now believe it… wonderful !!
I very well know all that’s written over here doesn’t make any sense at least it does to me at this moment dunno about if this will make sense, when this phase passes….but I guess that’s the way it is…and why to keep things bottled up in your heart and trouble your own self…best to let it out in words… In fact, somewhere I’m really happy this is my first blog post made from my lappy though it doesn’t truly reflect me but just a glimpse of my emotions that have been running high since quite a time…
I dunno why but I’m having this urge to share some three line verse I had written long long back at the end of this post…I really dunno if it’ll make sense as the end note but doesn’t matter does it ?? So here they go,
“Your stole my words before I could speak,
Shattered my heart even before I could cherish my feelings…
Shattered my heart even before I could cherish my feelings…
And now I’m only left with forlorn hope.”
Finally feeling good to have let out….in deed Paper is Patient than Man!
-Fatima
P.S: I know I'm being too lazy and I din comment or as a matter of fact have not read any of the recent blog post...but I hope to read them soon.
P.S: I know I'm being too lazy and I din comment or as a matter of fact have not read any of the recent blog post...but I hope to read them soon.
Kaam par dhyaan de ladki :P
ReplyDeleteHaving said that, don't cry. Paper might be patient than a person, but the person who takes papers (examiner) isn't going to wait.
AND, nice three liner. Do share them before they have to force their way out when other emotions find vent.
Best of luck with the seminar report. :)
Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete
where to start n where to end....ok 1st gear up girl or chitole(i dont know if i spelled it ryt) is gonna ground u...2nd hmmm i know wat is goin on in ur mind these days...chuck it all...we have 2 more yrs sentencd to hell....n the liners r nice really...hmm guess tats all 4 now...n ya as u said...i could connct...:)
ReplyDeleteNice 3 liner Fama....Hope to see you free soon dear :)
ReplyDeleteHey watsupp..hmmm..i hope you find your way soon <3<3
ReplyDeletetake care
All the best for the seminar .. and not to worry if you have not been visitng all in good time i guess ..
ReplyDeletetake care and keep smiling
Bikram's
i dunno abt u, bt im pretty confused after reading this.
ReplyDeletekya bola kuch samajh main bhi nahi aaya.
i mean i get wat ur sayin, bt m probably nt abl to locate wat d problem is.
u cried cos u wer missin ur frns on one day n dey came baq aftr dat?
if i knew u any bettr id say dis, n very seriously at dat- dumbooo!!!
get wel soon n dont b so gloomy.
or mayb ur alredy ok cos im seein dis aftr many days of u havin posted.
keep smilin!!!
tc bubbieee! :)
first..awwwww...be strong and remember always to say to yourself "this too shall pass"
ReplyDeletesecond...yiy, yiy yiy..i can finally read your posts:-)
nice one.........loved ur weiting and thoughts
ReplyDeleteIndeed can be truly known to the person who may have gone through such feelings.The only thing we can wait for in these types of moment is let them go of us.And if it doesn't happen we may have to fake the things just to make people around know yeah i am alright.
ReplyDeleteMay this phase pass soon!
take care
ReplyDeleteOkay, even my vents-out are all prim and proper, makes me compulsive? I dunno, it is like you were burdened and then, you scribbled this out and that's that, it does not matter how it came about, it did and it makes you feel at peace, even a bit would do, I'd like to believe?
The verse at the end's fascinating, well written. Haven't you always been charming with words when paying attention to what you're writing? Guess, you have!
Be good! (;
I totally agree with what BA has said in the first comment. :) Stay happy girl and do well in life.
ReplyDeleteventing out our feelings in form of writing always helps.
ReplyDeleteJust keep the hope alive :)
I loved as you said "Absence and Distance does make the heart grow fonder"
aww nice post...!
ReplyDeletewow you also vent out your feelings through pen and paper...join the clud girl...;)
i am your new follower btw...i hope you follow back:)
Oh Fatima! Your post is a mirror to me, i should say you are a mirror image of mine :P :P
ReplyDeleteIts best to write it out, and bid adieu :) :) True..."Absence and Distance does make the heart grow fonder." Loved those last lines too :) And dearie dont cry, attract what you want, hopes can make the impossible happen :) I experienced it :) And lastly take care :)
Cheer up,
Love,
@ Anshul: Mein dhyan de rahi hoon...you know na it ws just I was too frustrated seminar...U.T dancing over the head... hmmp
ReplyDeletebut abhi mein mast hoon :)
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@ Vaisakhi: Seriously yaar..abhi toh presentation is also remaining arrg...I at times hate our college for this :P
ReplyDeleteThanks you liked those lines :)
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@ Valli: You gotta be kidding me dear..free aur mein jaise tu mera schedule nahi janti :P
ReplyDeleteGlad you liked the lines :)
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@the other side of me: Hey now everything is good..but the time I posted this...it was hell !
ReplyDeleteThanks :)
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@ Bikramjit: Thanks for understanding...but now I'm back and I'm gonna catch up soon :D
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@ Sadiya: hehehe...aare yaar aisa kuch nahi hai...sirf frustrated thi and tu janti hai na..I can't handle all this makes me go mad :P
ReplyDeleteI'm good re..just seminars n exams..baki mast!
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