EUPHONY ( A Short Story )

 EUPHONY

 

" My thoughts are haywire and I'm wired...

And I'm unable to think straight...

Why me?? Is the question that escapes..."

            It was a peaceful day...the sun had started settling and the waves ruffled at the shore yet the sea looked calm and serene, they both sat facing the sea gazing the setting sun and reflecting their life. The wind blew aimlessly caressing her hair and adding a chill to the November evening, their heart beats were settled in the stillness of night and none of them spoke, it was the silence that conveyed their feelings. After what seemed like an eternity had passed she broke the silence....

          Life at times is so intricate that you ponder and question it, but what if it throws back the question back at you ? and you are left in silence....silence that haunts you and you feel like running away from it but the more you run, the more entangled you become.

        Sometime back my life too, was the same solitude is all that I wanted and that too for life; I had become a lifeless inner soul. I was happy in front but hide my self deep within myself; that's the time you walked in my life like an angel not like wind, I invited you unknowingly and you stepped into this chaotic world of mine only to clear the mess and enliven me once again.

        I always loved silence and calm as it gave me a sense of tranquility and solitude; it's just I kept it hidden under my talkative self though talking was inborn...spun lies around me myself, lies which were not meant for others but for my own self.

         You were so very different from others..weird is what they called you but for me you were different not weird! The way you envisaged things and formed convictions; you were a vagabond..a wanderer, you lived life on your own terms. You had your own notions yet you never cut my wings and let me fly high. Yes at that time I did criticize you and felt tied down despite all this but later came to realize I was not losing but gaining. During this course of time, I didn't know when this friendship changed to love; yes I fell in love with you and fought an inner battle but then was at peace....earlier I perceived you as my shadow; but now you are the sound of my heart and a part of my soul.

          I don't know what destiny has in store for me nor do I know whether the almighty has in woven us together or split us apart; but what I do know is my soul is entwined with yours and it will be till eternity.

         There is so much to share, so mush to tell but as I gaze into your deep brown eyes I'm lost again and I realize my eyes have given way to my untold feelings as I see your eyes shimmer and these speak the unsaid and understand the unexpressed !!

        Have I ever told you ?? that your eyes draw me to you; your voice compels me to talk to you..and your breath forces me to be silent and listen to the symphony that takes over my soul and enthralls me...your persona captivates me and I feel complete... 

A starry silence enveloped.....after what seemed like aeons she broke the silence...

         I know now the question looming over your mind .."why is she saying this all today and re confessing her feelings to me? and yet today why does she not take my name often and only seldom does my name escape her lips? why is the lone question ?" ........

Well today I break my bonds and confess this to you...so as to why I never take your name...why I prefer calling you my "Soul Searched Friend", my "Soul mate", my "Heartbeat"...well I myself really don't know Mayank...I truly don't know why? (pause) but what I do know is..you truly shine like a moon in my darkened nights and yet you provide me light and warmth in the morning; though your always not there; you fill that void by your words and unseen presence...(pause) my words are now lost and I can't give way to more...all I can expect from you is to understand your Nupur and free her from her own clutches...not by your words but by your mere presence and a smile. After what seemed like an eternity had elapsed...she spoke again.... 

   I'm not in a muddle nor am I sad...I also know maybe there'll never be a YOU and ME...but yet I'm happy and elated as there will always be a WE.

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* Mayank means moon.

* There is no end to this os...I leave it to you readers to draw whatever conclusions you want to coz love is not always fulfilled nor unrequited...it's simply just love!

* Also these words all this..is very dear to me...

short poems by me.......

 Ah! these verses ....were written on a cool rainy day while the nature was in it's most pristine form !! And I was busy looking out of the window instead of concentrating on the lecture :)

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Far off in the woods a shadow creeps…

The rhythm of heart beats in cacophony….

Rain drops trail through me….

Leaving me alone in melee…. 

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My thoughts are haywire and I’m wired….

And I’m unable to think straight….

Why me?? Is the question that escapes…….

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Birds are chirping far away in the woods,

And shadows are left far behind…..

The rhythm of heart reverberates loud…

But not a mere soul in sight… 

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Words are engulfing me, and I’m drowning....

Oh! This passion has turned into an obsession....
and it's driving me crazy!


-Fatima

Eternal Feeling...

It’s so very beautiful to fall in love … really even better than what I watched in movies and read in novels. Now I realize watching love reading about love and seeing people in love is nothing compared to being in love… the bliss and the contentment can only be felt when you’re truly in love with someone.

Love is not to want but to give, give yourself selflessly.. I at times wonder why people feel that when love is one sided it fades away I do get that it remains incomplete but then if your love is true how can it fade away ?? how can that phase pass away so soon ?? I do know that it is very painful really painful to see that the one you love doesn’t love you back … but then why grieve ? no point in it… At least you can be happy with the times you shared and the memories you made! They’ll  always be close to your heart and soul.

In life there is nothing incomplete if you feel it is then there’s a lot more to it you just need to wait for the time being coz life doesn’t leave anything incomplete god does complete it and returns it to us some way or the other. What really matters in the end is the faith and hope that is there in your heart…coz Wait is Hope!! 

Shaeyri...

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Aap ho toh zindagi mein chain hai,
Aap na ho toh yeh bechain hai....
Lamho mein ek rishta sa kayam ho gaya,
Aur najane waqt ne use adhura kyun chod diya........

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Zindagi mein kabhi aisa mod bhi aata hai,
Tanha jeena mushkil ho jata hai,
Lekin us murjhae hue zindagi mein phir se ek muskaan aati hai,
Jab hume aapki yaad aati hai....

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Hume to aadat hai aapko yaad karne ki,
Aapke saath betaie hue uss har lamhe ko yaad karne ki....
Najane yeh waqt iss tarhan kyun beet jata hai,
Inn lamhon ki dooryion ko mitane ki chaah mein..yeh waqt bhi peche chut jata hai.......

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MEMORIES REVISITED (Story)

This is my very first story ! I know the plot is very common, yet I tried to portray it in a different light. Hope you like it ! 

MEMORIES REVISITED 

                                      "Far off in the woods a shadow creeps,                                   

     The rhythm of heart beats in cacophony,

             Rain drops trail through me,

                 Leaving me alone in melee....."

       It was pouring heavily and the road was deserted….the night was silent and misty and the only sound reverberating was of the rainfall and thunder…She was walking aimlessly down the road and tears glistened on her cherry cheeks, her vision was blurred but she didn’t bother cleansing her spectacles and walked an untrodden road, where she had no one to look forward too…nor her family nor her husband; she let out silent tears as she trailed back in the past into her memories……..

           

       “It was 19^th June, the most precious day of her life; she got married to the love of her life on this very day…she was anxiously waiting for her dear husband to arrive, after all this was going to be a memorable anniversary for them, as she was pregnant and came to know about this joy in the wee hours of morning. It was way past 9 o’clock and worry was etched on her face…Oh! Dear lord hope everything is fine…why hasn’t yasin returned yet? He promised me he would be back by 7 o’clock and it’s almost two hours and no sign of him, muttered falaq as she paced the spacious hall of their apartment. Suddenly, the door bell rang and falaq sprang into action and ran towards the door; only to find a fully drenched yasin standing motionless at the door with a near about two year old baby girl.

         

          Falaq’s face went pale and she couldn’t fathom what was going on….seconds later, Yasin stepped in and laid the baby on couch and turned to his wife. After what seemed like aeons, the silence broke as Yasin spoke, “I’m sorry shona but I need to confess something to you… (His voice faltered) something which I myself didn’t know about a month back. Yes, this was my important meeting due to which I came home late…” Yasin paused as his gaze shifted to his wife who sat there motionless taking in everything silently he continued further, “three years back when we didn’t know each other, there was a girl named Aliya in my life, we two were the best of friends so much so that our friends teased us as a future couple… (Pause)….It was new year’s eve and as usual I was partying with my friends, don’t know how it happened maybe destiny but I and aliya ended up drunk and in that state we crossed our limits unknowingly. The next day we were unable to face other and had even reduced talking from that day onwards; (Pause) that was the time (One month later) you came in my life like wind and swept me away by your innocence and charm, it was love at first sight as you remember…and we got together, Yasin paused and continued further; it was during this time Aliya discovered she was carrying my child, but really shona I didn’t know about it had I known I would never have carried forward my relationship with you and happily embraced Aliya and my child but then maybe destiny had other plans and Aliya vanished into thin air, without informing anyone only to be resurfaced a month back from today... (Long pause)

        

        She called me up and to be frank I was delighted to hear from her after three years, l went to meet her that’s when I came to know about sameya; my daughter…I refused to believe but she was telling the truth and when I asked her why after years she wants me to accept our daughter ? she told me she was suffering from blood cancer and that too in the last stage and the only thing she wished was I accept my daughter, she get a family before her mother left for eternity…she didn’t want her daughter to be an orphan like she was. She even confessed she didn’t want to come in between us and hence, went far off but destiny played games and she had to come back. Yasin paused to take breath and continued further…aliya died today in the morning leaving behind a part of her, her bundle of joy in my hands, I could not leave sameya …I’m not hard hearted that I leave my daughter alone in this world when her father is alive and knows about her….the only thing I hope and wish from you falaq is to accept Sameya with your heart, I know it’s difficult but not impossible, sighed yasin.

             

       Without uttering a single word falaq got up and left the house as she needed some time and space to clear the mess and drain her soul to come to terms with reality. Shona wait….falaq …..where are you going? The voice became muffled as she walked away……..”

             

          And here she was walking on a lonely road and the words played and replayed in her mind, and she finally pondered, “I should not have walked away liked that, how could I do so? It’s not as if Yasin has cheated me, he himself didn’t know about it…But he could tell me the day he found out…But the point is he came clean today, he confessed he didn’t hide the fact from you…” She fought a battle with her inner self and after what seemed like eternity, retraced her steps towards her home…….

             

         The sight that greeted her was beautiful an hour back she found it dreadful and now she found it beautiful! Yasin had fallen asleep on the couch and sameya was playing with his tie….Oh! How could I not trust my husband she questioned herself, as she moved towards him and brushed the hair across his forehead; and he suddenly woke up with a jerk…“Shona is that really you?” and she nodded silently. “I’m sorry dear, I didn’t want to spoil this day…I’m so very sorry…” spoke Yasin. “No yasin it’s not you who should ask forgiveness but me, I doubted your love…I’m so sorry…” muttered falaq. And words and untold feelings were expressed through their eyes…and she hugged her husband tightly, when she heard sameya cry….”Oh! My baby, don’t cry mamma’s there with you now, no more tears from now on in my sweet daughters eyes” and tears welled up in yasin’s eyes listening his wife talk to ‘their’ daughter; and he took his wife and daughter in a tight embrace, sending silent thanks to the almighty for making this anniversary memorable in every sense.

           

         “Love is not always expressed by physical gestures. It can also be expressed silently…love means connecting and bonding emotionally and being there with your loved one through thick and thin, and trust and understanding define love in the unspoken form!”